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Other / What can I do to prepare for an abortion?
« on: December 10, 2018, 07:12:35 PM »
I'd be grateful for a response.
I have plenty reason to believe that i am pregnant, I've taken two tests but I definitely took them too early. I have been experiencing light pink discharge, thick, white and sticky discharge and light cramping which if my research is correct is common and normal signs of early pregnancy. Myself and my partner have already discussed whether this is an option we both mutually agreed that this is not something we're ready for. (I'm also not some scared teenager it's a level headed decision) I won't consider adoption because I couldn't live knowing my child is out there somewhere without their biological parents. I'd rather terminate asap than go into this knowing I'll be unhappy, I want the best for my future kids and I can't provide that now. Is there anything I can do to prepare myself I know its not easy, but I am very willing to accept the consequences.

Thank you in advance.

Relationships / Cheating
« on: November 29, 2018, 12:08:03 AM »
 :-\ Let's have a serious talk. Is cheating really the end of the relationship, or can it be salvaged?

Relationships / Addiction 18+ Replies Please
« on: November 28, 2018, 11:06:14 PM »
Hi, I'll apologise now for the large essay. This not meant for anyone under 18. If you're curious go ask your parents.

So I was exposed to 18+ materials from a very young age, like 4/5 and I would often watch this content behind my parents back. I was caught a few times but they never took the time to explain things to me and I would just be scolded. I would avoid it for a while but sure enough I'd go right back to it. Things got worse as I got older, I had discovered a lot about sex by the time I was 16 however due to lack of self-esteem and depression, I strayed from social settings and remained a virgin. When I turned 17, I got with my 1st and only legitimate boyfriend, we were both virgins and very new to relationships. Eventually we began exploring, and it didn't start out very innocent due to my background.
Long story short after a year we lost our virginity to each other but I started to feel pressure to be the women I had seen online to keep him interested (even though he didn't care) I was just being a typical teenage girl.

I found myself watching it more often and it was then that I had my first orgasm. All that time I was unaware that that's what it was used for. Shamelessly it became a habit, I did it before college, after college, before bed, anytime I was home alone. I believe this is where my problem started, I can no longer be stimulated through my clitoris by my partner and only orgasm if I'm watching those videos or with a very powerful toy. My taste in content becomes more and more outrageous borderlining things that I strongly disagree with, I'm extremely disgusted by it but it doesn't stop me.
As years went by I went on various forms of contraceptives, the pill, the implant for 2 years and the depo injection for a year and a half, with these I suffered greatly from the hormonal depression, lack of libido and vaginal dryness side affects, I was struggling to become aroused and this is when I really began to abuse the online content. I have been off of contraception (just condoms) for 7 months now as a desperate attempt to salvage my sex life with my amazing partner. I have began to notice that this addiction is putting a strain on our relationship, we have been together for 6 years now so it would be quite weird if he didn't notice that I don't orgasm. We've spoke about it and I've briefly explained the reasons why and tried to ensure him that it's not his fault (not sure he believes me). I'm scared that I'll lose him because of it. It makes me feel so guilty everytime we have sex because he's always trying to please me to no end, it has got to the point where I turn down his advances to avoid disappointing him. I have stopped watching it for almost 3 weeks now but I get very, very tempted and urges every hour of the day. I would be grateful for some advice from anyone else who may have experienced this on how to become sensitive to my partner again.

I also hope that my story serves as a warning, 'pornography' can become an addiction when you have depression and can cause desensitization from your loved ones and it's not as uncommon in women as you might think. Thank you.

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